I WANT TO SLEEP ETERNALLY


Hurts.
Still hurts.
I can´t divest of these feelings.
Love, hate,resentment, boredom, oblivion, bitterness, sad memories,
this grudge growing day by day,
this wish of have never met you,
this regret of knowing that I have ruined my life
the "if only I would have"
the "I wish I would have"
the "if I only had gone in the other direction completely opposite to you"
living knowing that I did wrong
living remembering you
I can´t tear you out of me
I hate myself for that
and I hate you even more
I try
I have tried so hard
I have fled from one place to another
from one bed to another
from one corner of my soul to another
I´m looking forward to forgeting you
I wish to think of you no more
I curse the day when I met you
if I only
if I only
but it wasn´t like that
I met you
I loved you
I lost you
and all has lost in the forgotten
I no longer remember who I was
I want to be the same person that I was before you again
but I don´t know where she went
she has gone
she has faded
I have looked in my conscience
I have looked in my subconscience
and in every corner of my memories
but there's nothing
it´s gone
why has she gone?
I want to be me again
the one I used to be
the one everybody loved
the one I used to love
I refuse to accept that I have died
I died with you
and you don´t even notice it
what is worse,
you don´t even care
I can´t recognize myself anymore
I don´t know if I am awake
or if I am dreaming
nothing of this makes sense
but I can´t take it anymore
I want no more
I need to dispose of all this
I need to dispose of you
of my idea of you
I want to sleep
sleep
eternally
sleep
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2 comentarios:

MoCuishle dijo...

Buenos Dias

Disculpa las molestias, tome prestado este hermoso poema para ponerlo en mi blogger ya que me identifique con el, esto es algo nuevo, a decir verdad soy una novata mas de estos sitios...

Espero que no les moleste, le agrege unas cosillas minimas...

Me encanto este Blog...

Gracias
:P

Anónimo dijo...

Creo que cuando se copia algo, lo mínimo por hacer es dar el crédito al autor en el lugar de publicación. Si lo modificamos, indicar que le hicimos una adaptación. Lo adecuado sería obtener el permiso anticipado del autor.